Just applied for JSA. Well this does wonders for my confidence. Done it after a big argument with my mum. Really not sure if i will get it considering I have some money in savings.. Which I had out there for when I move or get married. So not a clue if I will. But at least my mum can get off my fuxking back about it.

However after that crash I got a few boosts as a few people I know said by they thought id be a good and trustworthy midwife. This makes me happy as hell considering two of them have had babies and know what it's like. I just really hope that the university will see it that way when I go to reapply! God I miss studying :(