I don't really know what to say anymore. I think I'm doing better and then BOOM. I fall to pieces. I had another episode last night and I don't really know what about or whom. I just felt so shit about being lonely and not having anyone. But I feel like, I don't know. I feel like right now I need to be 'happy' single. Whatever happy is. I just don't want to care about B having another girlfriend or even seeing another girl. Just, I know one day it will happen for me.

Started doing a bit of studying for my midwifery. Just started on the first chapter, but it's a start.