Ive had an alright day, yeah I have. I completed my first night of cooking dinner. But now, I'm lying in bed wanting to see B. like on a real big level. I want him all over me, touching me. Raw and real. That's what I'm.. Almost.. Craving. I want to feel some one else touch my skin and god he was good at that.

I picked up my phone to text him buy then thought : what would I say? Plus I wouldn't be able to see him for another two weeks anyway. I feel like I'm getting better about him now, because I haven't seen him in a while. I know this is what I need to do. Hopefully when I see him again I'll be a little thinner, fitter and happier. I'm sorting myself out now I hope. I want him to see me and think: wow. She's changed. I just hope I can do it.